Lover before friends, but not every friend becomes a lover

So I've been debating back and forth on whether or not to blog about this, but ultimately this blog is a snapshot of my life so I can look back at it and remember how I felt at the time. Well "there's this guy that I've been seeing...hold up though" lol let's call him Blac Label. But nah really, I'm going thru internal conflict because I'm wondering do I feel this way because he is an attractive great friend or is it more. Lovers before friends, but not every friend becomes a lover.

See blac label is unreliable as shit, but I still see the potential in his flaws. Despite our breaks we get back at it like nothing happened. He doesn't question my motives and I don't question his. It's a mutual unstated agreement. Our friends don't know much, but they do know there is love and to expect flirting when we are together. I don't really talk about issues with Label, or any other relations, with my girls, which ppl hate, but I've realized at the end of the day I will make my own decisions and never look back at them with anything less than a smile, so I'm cool. All I know is Label keeps me smiling, thinking, up at night despite work, and overrall just doing things I wouldn't do for other relations. I don't know where this post is going, but all I know is I ain't had a crush in years.