Teenage Love Affair

What I found when cleaning my room

Summer '04

MY FEARS

I fear that I want you to read this, but I don't.

I fear that you will see my mind on paper and no longer see me as me.

I fear that I will write too much down just cuz this pen makes me free.

But I'll get over these fears cuz, I fear, that's just what you can do for me.

Baby, I fear that I am only here cuz Mia fucked up, not cuz you no longer care.

I fear that you might have my heart and therefore, I fear I can't live without you by my side.

I fear that distance will fuck up whatever we had/have.

Not only do I fear that you are too horny for your own good, but I fear that becuz of your disrespect, I may subconsciously want to hook-up with someone else in Vandy knowing that there is no way in which I am wrong if you are "doing you" in NY.

I also fear for you "doing you" in NY with your pops.

I fear that you won't ever get away from that becuase you have to prove yourself throughout life.

I fear that our two different lifestyles in school, will create havoc in this thing we call life.

I fear that I am getting too attached to you.

I fear that I want to talk to your brother like one of my prefectees and speak to your moms to talk about her son.

I fear that I may be wilin'.

I fear that I always see the clock at 9:11 am and pm and I fear something will always happen.

I fear that if I could only see one person for the rest of my life, I would pick you.

I fear that I see my dad in you.

I fear that the streets and your "people" will cause you to lose focus and bring you down.

I also fear that, like him, you wouldn't ever be faithful.

I fear that you can't have a night with me truly w/o having sex or grindin'.

I fear that there is something wrong with our relationship being so hush w/ mutual friends.

I fear that I would leave church early to be with you.

I fear pregnancy.

I fear pain.

I fear the thought of you leaving me.

I fear that if I marry I will cheat on my husband with you.

I fear that I am getting entirely to close to you.

I fear that I know you too well and not be able to be with one man.

I fear you would look at me now and won't understand.